On Monday, I wrote about being busy, and how I wanted to learn how to let myself relax and let some things go. Having worked five part-time jobs for over a year, this is easier said than done. However, I think I have taken a huge step in the right direction.
You see, it is a crazy world in which we live. People do things that we don’t always understand. They make poor choices (like watching Here Comes Honey Boo-Boo) or they waste their money (like buying knock-off Nutella. Trust me on this people- stick to the original). Sometimes they even do very strange things, like offering to hire a 25-year-old blogger to a full-time position that perfectly fits with her masters’ degree.
I mean, really? Who does this kind of stuff?
Oh wait. As it turns out, I know someone who does that last thing. (I know someone who does the first two things as well, but this blog isn’t about me…. wait…)
That’s right. Someone in a position of authority has extended to me the offer of full-time employment, complete with benefits (yay health insurance!) and a salary that doesn’t have to come from five combined sources! It also uses my Master’s Degree, which honestly is something I was beginning to think would never happen. The best part is, this is the same company for which I currently work 35 hours a week. My job title changes, and my pay structure, but the work itself will largely be an extension of what I currently do, which I enjoy.
As of yesterday, I have accepted this offer. Starting September 10th, I will be employed full-time.
Now, what that means for my other four part-time jobs is a bit unclear. I’ll still keep three of my part-time jobs for sure- one as a weekly babysitter, one as the Children’s Ministry Director at my church, and one as a freelance writer/ producer of web series (provided we can ever launch said web series). None of these pay particularly well (and one doesn’t pay at all…), but they are jobs that I can easily do with a full-time job. Most importantly, they are things that I truly enjoy.
What is most uncertain is my retail sales job. This is a job that, while insanely frustrating at time, is one that I do enjoy. It’s also the best paying of my remaining jobs. What I am hoping is that I can keep this job for a little while longer and just reduce my hours to weekends and maybe one closing shift here and there as needed.
What I expect will happen, however, is that the store will hire or promote someone into my position to cover the hours I can’t work and there won’t be any hours left for me. I haven’t talked to my manager yet, so I don’t know which way the hammer is going to fall, but I have coworkers who would love more hours and they deserve to have them. I may very well have to say good-bye to this job, and that terrifies me.
You see, my full-time contract includes a six-month probationary period and as soon as I saw that paragraph, my anxiety-captive mind started racing. What if I hate this job? What if they decide they hate me? What if I can’t do the work? What if the company gets taken over by Skynet and my position isn’t needed after six months? I mean, these are legitimate concerns. I have contingency plans for just about everything, but there is no plan for downsizing due to hostile sentient computer takeover.
But I think the thing that scares me the most is the idea that I won’t be so busy. I’ve been so busy for so long that I don’t think I know how to not be busy. I don’t know any reply other than “let me check my schedule and get back to you.” I don’t know how to make plans more than a week in advance because my schedule has never been steady before. I don’t know how to prepare for a day that doesn’t have at least four calendar notes. Essentially, I am Scott in the video below.
It’s so true. It’s so sad, but it’s so true.
So there are a lot of things still up in the air right now. All I know for sure is that come September 10th, things are going to be different. With luck, they’ll be good different. In any case, I’m off to develop my Skynet contingency plan. I’ll see you all on Monday.